I know, I know.. I already posted today. But I have to do something, else I'll go thinking and get crazy. So I spoke to the guy. It started like a normal conversation, but it ended up me telling about my feelings for him. He apologized for giving me the wrong signs and told me he felt very sad about this all.. I told him I got used to this all with boys and love and he wanted to talk about it. But there's nothing left to say, he likes her and not me. There's nothing we can do about that. He wants to stay friends, but it's hard to see him and knowing he's not mine, and never will be. I feel really sad, and I didn't went to work today, and I'm not going to, tomorrow. I'm going to the city to get the last stuff I'll need before I'm leaving, and after that I'm getting my bags packed. I feel like crying.. but two weeks I'll be far gone from this and after that I hope I feel better. I don't wanna lose him as a friend..
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